-Book Introduction
“As if you secretly looked into me and wrote it only for me”
What is this feeling of wanting to go home even though you are at home? When your empty heart is filled with emptiness, I hand you this book that is perfect for reading. A clear mind that finds a small piece of happiness in the softness of a freshly washed blanket even after curling up. A hopeful heart that can shake off and get up again after a grievous breakup and dream of eternal love. These rare and precious hearts come from what I consider my happiness to be the most precious than anyone else. Let's read the writings of Kwon Rabin, who tells us that it's okay to run away when the harsh reality is too much, that it's okay to feel like disappearing from time to time, and not to compare my difficulties with those of others. As one reader put it, these writings, which seem to have secretly looked into me and written only for me, will be your warm refuge. You can stay here and take a break for a while.
-Index
prologue 005
Chapter 1 My happiness is more important than anyone else
Sometimes I want to disappear 013 My own way to get out of depression 016 Will the day when I can be happy to the fullest come to me too 018 You were my tomorrow 019 I want to go home even though I am at home 022 I hope there are more things I like 025 I have a blanket full Even hugging doesn't fill it 027 · You don't deserve to hurt me 029 · That's not advice or advice 031 · Don't compare my difficulties with others 032 · Those words should be better than silence 034 · There are lines that shouldn't be crossed everywhere There is 037 · My own way to relieve stress 040 · That it didn't disappear 042 · To you who ran away 044 · Rabin's story The day I miss my dad 046
Chapter 2 For you who are going through a hard life
Plus Time spent lying in bed and using my phone 051 Wishes 054 I hope Christmas never comes 055 Regrets always remain, less regrets or more regrets, it's just the difference 058 Selfish mind 061 It's not wrong, it's just different 062 Already I knew it 063 The truth hidden behind colored glasses 066 The weight of words 067 Why it's okay to be slow 070 A friend who always wears only one earphone 072 A person who is more dangerous during the day than at night 075 I hope my life is a little better 077 My standard of happiness 081 Uncontrollably I Hope You Don't Hate Someone 083 · When You Think You Can't Do Anything 085 · We Are All Each of Our Stars 087 · Life Is Contradictory 090 · Courage That Will Not Be Wrinkled 092 · The Way to Find Me 093 · Longing for Those Left Behind 095 · The Story of Rabin The Child Without a Mother 097
Chapter 3 If you don't know why we broke up
Vacancy in Existence 105 · Farewell Signal 107 · We met because we were different and we broke up because we were different 108 · That's not love 109 · Things you threw away and I couldn't throw away 110 · Listening to the radio 112 · The scariest anger is silence 114 · Small things are the most important 115 · If you don't know why we broke up 117 · From the closest to the farthest in the world 118 · An impossible story if love remains 120 · Real and fake 121 · Maybe I'm still waiting for you 123 · Unrequited love 125 · The weight of the letter 128 · Timing of parting 130 · Do good when you are together 131 · For you who had to give up on your dreams and love 132 · Relationships need pruning 133 · The cycle of meeting and parting 136 · Memories 138 · The share of learning 139 · Going back a long way The heart that needs to be reached 140 · Dreaming of love again 142 · The story of Rabin What do you think love is? 145
Chapter 4 We end up falling in love again
What kind of person am I to you? Let's not break up 166 Soft and gentle 168 To you, who always wants to be confirmed of love 169 Love is like that 171 Choosing words 172 The miracle called you 173 Because this is my first love 175 I want to show off 176 A special date 178 When You Call Me 179 · Without Saying 180 · Let's Run 182 · The Man Who Draws The Stars 184 · Between Nine And Ten 187 · How We Spend The Dawn Together 189 · Eternity 190 · The Love Of Half A Tangerine 191 · Love In The Eyes The Moment 193 · Reasons for being alike when in love 194 · Love is something two people do 196 · I will give you the love you deserve 198
epilogue 200
